I find myself increasingly compelled to watch a lot of movies and TV series. Not even good, deep stuff either; just schlocky action type stuff. It's pure escapism, from the disappointing banality of my real life. I like to think that I am not a banal, disappointing person and that I have more potential. But maybe I actually am. But all the hours pissed away on whiskey and Jessica Jones are just wasted potential. Potential is meaningless unless realized. The weight of a projectile is meaningless unless it is actually fired. I need to surround myself with people who will push me to be more creative and expressive, rather than drag me down. Easier said than done, I know.