Donkeymon

So here's the thing; I am packing up here and I keep coming across things that I will need to pack eventually, like my desk or my table, but I don't want to pack them yet because I still need them for use in my daily life. Then it occurs to me, over and over, that I have no more daily life and that my remaining (eight!) days will all be crazy and I won't need any of this stuff any more, so I need to just pack it up and get rid of it. I don't think I am quite prepared for all this psychologically yet. Stuff like the couches and the kitchen table are gone and it is really freaking me out. Thankfully the TV and the PlayStation will be here until the end.

I have been doing a lot of things for the last time. Actually now that I think about it, I have surely been doing things for the last time for a while, but only now have I started doing things intentionally "one last time." For instance, today I had one last lunch at the Mt. Washington Market with my friends from my old job. I had my last of a thousand teriyaki subs, and saw those people for the last time, at least for a very long time. Tonight I went to eat at the Paper Moon Diner for the last time, although I may end up eating there again because soon there will be no food in the house (just beer) and I will need to eat something.

I have started reading a book called Dogs and Demons about Japan and how it has gone astray and been destroying itself. I have only read little bit of the first chapter so far, but it is really depressing. it is not so much stuff that I don't know about, but it still gets you down. The first chapter is about the environment in Japan, and about how every single major or minor river in japan has been dammed and rerouted and paved, and how the construction industry is so entrenched that one in five people work for it directly or indirectly and that they build bridges and roads to nowhere, pointless tunnels and retaining walls, and dozens of dams every year just to keep their budgets intact, because that way all the politicians and bureaucrats get paid.




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